How am i doing?Read Now
I am doing GREAT! Really well considering the circumstances.
We all have circumstances, right? For me, it's been a challenging season. Sure, I am walking through treatment for breast cancer. It's been a ride to be a family physician during a pandemic, with the need to read a lot and listen to opinions and help my patients make decisions, to do what I can to be a leader for my community, and all. I am glorying in this current opportunity to come up for air in this break in the pandemic May it be the end or at least the beginning of the end.
My mother's health has shifted in ways that have made it important for me to travel to SC whenever my own health allows. I am holding space for other members of my family who are also facing their own hard times.
The clouds of war and the threat of global climate collapse weigh heavily on me as a person and as a mother.
I am so lucky to have people who love me and who want to know how the treatment for breast cancer is going. So, as of today, here it is:
There is snow on the ground. Nearly 6 inches here in the woods of Northern Boone County. In March. Not supposed to get melting temps until Sunday, when it is forecast to be nearly 60. The winter and the spring alternating echo how I feel during this time of my treatment. A week or so of difficulty melts into feeling well.
I have come through 6 cycles of chemotherapy. I did actually really well, considering. Cycles are a good image. A week of not feeling very good: tired, unmotivated, a little itchy, sore fingers, not really excited about food, a funny change in taste, some tenderness in my mouth that really didn't like food that had much texture. Then these discomforts would gradually melt away until the third week, I felt really good. The return of energy, enthusiasm, and feeling good in my body is quite enjoyable.
My cancer is responding by getting smaller. I am convinced that for me, chemotherapy was a good choice.
Surgery is in a week. I am attempting to advocate for myself to have the pain from the procedures before the surgery managed well, but am up against a pretty big system. I am envisioning a little crack in the system that will let me through. I have seen these miracles happen and it's usually cause a visionary front line worker takes a risk, speaks up or sneaks through, and makes something happen that isn't quite policy.
Emotionally and spiritually I am doing very well, again considering. It's a cliche for a reason that cancer brings gifts. I am walking through a late spring snow. I don't like the sadness and loss that comes with facing mortality, with having big medical things to deal with, with seeing the very real problems of our medical system. I am very grateful that self-pity and bitterness have not been visitors who stayed very long when they visit. There is also a warm sweetness to appreciate in the life I have. Nothing like feeling bad to make me appreciate the days I feel good. A dear friend says I am softer. That rings with truth to me.
Complementary therapies have been central to my physical and emotional health. I have embraced fasting (both fasting mimicking diet and intermittent fasting), supplements, sauna, Hyperbaric Oxygen Therapy, EMDR, counseling Psychedelic Assisted Therapy, exercise, physical therapy, cooling of hands and feet, cannabis, craniosacral therapy, and a lot of prayer.
My practice has, so far, survived this winter. I have had far less energy to devote to my patients and many have found other places to get health care. I understand and want all of them to get exactly the very best they can. Two nurse practitioners joined my practice and have kept the fires burning when I wasn't in the office. I have been able to work 1-2 days per week and the patients who have stayed with me for that work are much appreciated. My enthusiasm for my work is intact. I am looking forward to returning to full-time work and eager to see what working with a team of advanced practice nurses will be like. I have some ideas for new services and programs. Those will have to wait for now. Like the spring it will come.
UPDATE: I got a miracle. They did exactly what I asked for regarding pain control for all of the painful parts AND said they were considering rewriting their policies for others.
Fasting #2Read Now
Fasting: it's a thing these days. Lots of talk about fasting.
First: Fasting isn't for everyone. People who have had a journey with disordered eating probably should keep eating on a regular basis and have some support. Medical conditions can affect how well you tolerate any diet, including one that is limited. Be aware, informed, and keep your medical team in the loop.
Second: What do we even mean by the word? I can see the eye rolls from folks with lots of experience with water fasts (consuming only water for a period of hours or days) with all this talk about "fasting" when really we are eating food. I get it and wish we had better words.
Fasting: not eating, not consuming calories, typically water only or non-caloric teas
Intermittent Fasting (Time Limited Eating): Confining eating to specific times during the day. For example, eating between noon and 6PM and not consuming anything but water the rest of the day.
Juice Fasting/Cleansing: Consuming only water, teas, juices.
Fasting Mimicking Diet: Can you see the irony? It's a fast AND a diet, which means eating and fasting at the same time. Yep. It's about trying to achieve the health benefits of fasting and avoid the downsides that limit the tolerability and safety of fasting in some circumstances.
All of these ways of eating or not eating have health benefits and risks. Some have been embraced for cultural or spiritual reasons as well.
There is a rabbit warren that of articles and information and opinions about fasting and chemotherapy that can occupy many hours. I know. My footprints are there. Some references are at the end of this post.
Here is my best summary of what I found helpful.
Regarding use with chemotherapy, the most researched approach is the Fasting Mimicking Diet (FMD) which is typically:
2. 25% of the recommended calorie intake for the height and weight of the person
3. Mostly vegetables with some nuts and olives.
FMD likely decreases side effects of chemo, allows people to avoid use of steroids, and increases the effectiveness of chemo. Very preliminary studies, small numbers, and mostly by the same team of researchers. Not definitive, but I had to decide what I was going to do during my chemo which was October 2021 through February 2022. I used what we knew at the time. Very little downside to fasting: safe, cheap, likely effective.
FMD was developed to be safe to use in medical conditions in which benefits are likely if a person fasts for several days and repeatedly. Complete fasting in situations like cancer treatment, autoimmune disease, chronic illness is challenging since many people experience hunger, headache, and weakness at the beginning of the fast. In addition, fasting completely from food or caloric beverages results in weight loss which can be undermining. Specifically in cancer treatment, loss of weight can limit the ability to tolerate treatment, and can be extreme enough to be life threatening.
The researchers are asking if there is a way to get the benefits of Fasting (lower blood sugar, lower insulin levels, lower Insulin-like Growth Factors (IGF), without the extreme weight loss. How much of which kinds of food can be eaten and keep weight stable and also get the metabolic benefits?
What did my FMD look like? Well, it evolved as I learned. I personally did better when I avoided high histamine foods during my fast and for the few days after chemo, so the prescribed FMD used in the studies wouldn't work for me. I also really don't like olives and found that eating olives during a fasting day just made me feel really sad. So, I made soups from vegetables that I roasted with some olive oil, seasoned with salt and herbs, and pureed with water. I ate 2-3 cups of this soup each day. I also ate limited amounts of nuts, and some crackers I made from nuts and seeds. I found that my hunger was much stronger once I started to eat for the day, so I ate at 2PM, at 4PM, and at 6PM.
Impact of modified short-term fasting and its combination with a fasting supportive diet during chemotherapy on the incidence and severity of chemotherapy-induced toxicities in cancer patients - a controlled cross-over pilot study
Randomised controlled trial of intermittent vs continuous energy restriction during chemotherapy for early breast cancer
Fasting-mimicking diet plus chemotherapy in breast cancer treatment
Fasting mimicking diet as an adjunct to neoadjuvant chemotherapy for breast cancer in the multicentre randomized phase 2 DIRECT trial
An artichoke is a splurge for my budget, a delight to my palate, and often included in my fasts.
For years, I have been aware of the health benefits of various forms of fasting. When I discovered that I have a serious illness, I overcame decades of fear of and resistance to fasting in a moment.
I embraced my best understanding of a Fasting Mimicking Diet(FMD). Very quickly, I found I actually like fasting in this way. I also found it to be really helpful to me terms of mental clarity, better metabolic lab markers, more abundant energy, and some weight loss.
After 5 days of a FMD, I returned to a regular diet with an emphasis on vegetables and low glycemic index foods. I then embraced a FMD two days per week. Typically I fasted during my work days, because the increased energy and mental focus were welcome on those days. Benefits continued.
As chemotherapy began, inspired by some very preliminary but very promising research and supported by the nutritionist I hired to guide me, I used the FMD on the three days before and the day of my chemo infusions. This was much harder. My chemo sessions were every three weeks and resulted in me not enjoying food very much for about a week or so. The three days before the next infusion were the days when my appetite was the most normal. Limiting my food those days was a disappointment.
1. I have responded in very promising ways to the chemo with a noticeable decrease in the size of my cancer, both by physical exam and by ultrasound. Preliminary studies indicate that by fasting, I may have measurably increased my chance of Complete Pathologic Resolution (no cancer cells found at surgery) which is correlated with longer survival.
2. NORMAL white blood cell (WBC) counts throughout my chemo even without taking the WBC stimulating medication for the last three cycles. Not just "good enough to get chemo" levels, but NORMAL. Low WBC counts are associated with more serious infections during chemo. Having low WBC counts is a common reason for people to have their chemotherapy sessions delayed or discontinued. One important predictor of good outcome with chemotherapy is being able to complete the course of treatment. Getting every one of my infusions on time felt like a victory. Seeing that this one marker of the health of my immune system was normal was really reassuring, especially since I was getting treatments during the delta wave of COVID-19.
3. I had very few side effects to chemotherapy. No vomiting. No nausea. Minimal intestinal upset of any kind. No neuropathy. Moderate fatigue. My oncologist is impressed. I can't say I felt GOOD during chemo, but I had some pretty good weeks of being able to take my normal walks and be physically active.
4. I was able to forgo using dexamethasone which is typically given as a pre-med for chemo to reduce side effects. Dexamethasone is a steroid and will raise blood sugar and insulin levels. I wanted to avoid that for many reasons, but mostly cause what I am reading suggests that keeping blood sugar and insulin levels low is important in preventing and treating cancer.
5. My Hemoglobin A1C levels went from borderline to NORMAL. Not yet ideal, but I expect that with the next blood draw. I likely prevented developing diabetes, which is its own challenge and is correlated with poorer outcomes in cancer.
6. A feeling of agency. I really liked being able to do something for myself that was likely helping me be healthy. Being treated by a team of medical professionals can sometimes feel really passive. Having things I was doing to help my success helped me feel more active.
7. Loss of weight to close to my high school weight. Some of that loss was due to chemo (so not healthy), but I think I have gained that part back. My weight is now stable despite a return to a more varied diet that includes whole grains and some rare sweet treats.
It was hard. I didn't like feeling hungry so many days. I frankly worried some days at how much weight I lost in the week after a treatment. It's not for everyone. I am very glad I did it. I am already resuming a pattern of eating less on the days I am in the office, and will likely resume something similar to a 1-2 days/week FMD after recovering from surgery.
Elizabeth Alleman, MD is a family physician, acupuncturist practicing and pondering in central Missouri