Mixed feelings

The weather is glorious. 
I don't feel really bad, but I don't feel good either.
I have so much support.
This is a solitary journey.
Chemotherapy is effective medicine AND it is hard.
Round 2 of 6 cycles of chemotherapy is complete. I am looking forward to being done and also understand that completing chemo is not the same as completing treatment. 
I have seen many gifts of this journey and also there are so many losses. 
​Grateful and grieving.