I got a list of things I am sorely disappointed in and also a long list of gratefuls. Some are the same thing. Cause it turns out I am human and full of contradictions and nuances.
Two main categories of grievances: 1. Medical care is really weird and offered in a sick and twisted system. Cancer care is part of that. Despite my being sort of an insider, advocating for myself is hard. 2. I don't like to create, discuss or defend boundaries. And I really dislike doing that work more than once about the same thing, with the same person. If I snarl at you, its likely me resenting the boundary work that is MINE TO DO. And my gratitudes? I am so grateful for my health, for my people who support me, for counseling (how would I do boundary work if I wasn't in therapy???), for the possibility of treatment, for having a "treatable illness", for hope, for sunshine and mild weather. Also (in no priority order) Gardens Dogs Fall Mushrooms Sleep Yoga Food Apetite Cannabis Zofran (I have heard and read about what chemo was like before this game-changing anti-nausea drug) Fasting Supplements Brandi Carlile Tig Natoro Glennon Doyle Pema Chodron Brene Brown Great story-tellers to engage my restless mind Libraries Intuition Witchy women The ending of relationships that were not serving me. Perfect timing
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Jan Stapleton
10/20/2021 10:51:52 pm
Dr Allemon ! Wow! I so share your grievances with the health care system and it will be trailblazers like yourself who share the REAL raw stories who will blazes a path for many to come! Sending you vibrant, healing, magical light! You are such a blessing to so many! And more brave than most! Namaste!
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AuthorElizabeth Alleman, MD is a family physician, acupuncturist practicing and pondering in central Missouri Archives
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